you played well

unsure, and uncertain.

lived that way for so long,

still fighting to be alive,

if that exists!

sometimes

I am invincible,
more of a Wonderwoman
but mostly
timid to dead
so invisible.

it's a struggle,
within
sometimes
wishing to be free
and sometimes
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so when people ask,
if I am introvert or extrovert,
I sly a grin,
because
it is a trick,
I am extrovert when I am alone,
and introvert when in a crowd.

so asking me to choose one,
it is like silencing one,
when both are equally cherished.

I curse my thoughts,
it's senseless,
so vast,
asking and making me do,
things I hate to,
but I know,
if I don't surrender
I will lose,
to my only partner,
who has been with me,
through everything,
even when unwelcomed.


so unsure, so uncertain,
growing,

with no strategy,

dreams
which keeps me alive,

stress
which makes me old

everything is ceasing,
and I...